I find that getting started again is one of the hardest things to do. I thought that by starting this blog, I would be able to hold myself more accountable. I thought that by starting to run the Couch to 5K with my friend, that I would magically love running again.
I have hit a wall, friends. I don't hate running but I am lacking that motivation. I no longer have that wonderful feeling during and after my runs, where I feel invincible. Instead, I feel nothing. I like, "Ok. I did it. Now what?" I don't know how to get over this hump. Well, I do but it's so hard. I know that I just have to keep working out and the feelings will come back but the amount of time until those feelings come back varies. The last time this happened it took about two months of hating it. And I know...it shouldn't matter because I should want those feelings back but it really SUCKS in the meantime. In the meantime, I spend all that time hating my body, hating exercising, and hating foods. All which are unhealthy habits. I just feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. I just don't know why I do these things to myself.
I need to get out of this funk.
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